The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step...

I am ‘satisfied’ of yesterday’s performance…though I did not perform well in terms of dieting but I kicked ass for exercise …before and after work, I just threw myself on the treadmill and kept on running, walking, running, walking till I my clothes were drenched in sweat…

This morning I woke up 5 mins before I usually get out for work, I was like running in all directions and I did it… I was not late… I already missed morning exercise, but I stay positive and will try not to eat fat plus exercise when I reach home.  For now I just know that I have to gradually improve myself one step at a time, till I get back on track.

Roaring bear

I woke up early today (not as early as I planned) then I walked/ran/jogged on my new treadmill-250 cals in 15-20 mins.  But after that I was hungry all day long... I ate chips, sweets and god knows what I will eat for dinner…  I feel like that bear below:

And yet I am still shamelessly happy for exercising this morning… I am doomed… I need to be more strict…

 

I am back

Sorry for not writing these last few months... but I feel that I am still statu quo; 

some updates;

• the doctor says I am anaemic and OBESE...
• I am still 68 kg
• I am still with my boyfriend and very much in love <3...
• I drastically reduced smoking (once a week...)
• I have been addicted to some soap opera and still am...
• I did not purge once since my last post.
• I finally got my tattoo and belly piercing and I LOOOVEE them :)
• My parents stopped pushing me for arranged marriage...and they are focused on my health and all...
• I am freaking out because new year is coming and I am still not 45kg...not even 50 or 60 GOD... 
• I've been really lazy, I just do not find the motivation to wake up early anymore...Not even to go hiking or to exercise at home...i am like constantly tired...

Summer is nearly here...and I think I am feeling better with early sunrise, warm temperature and sunlight makes me feel good... I am going to try AGAIN..till 23rd Dec..I'll be happy to lose just another 10 kg (that is to reach 58 kg) and I will deal with the rest next year...

But one thing stayed intact...I am still obsessed with flat belly...lol

I'll need a good dose of thinspiration to reach 58 kg within two and a half months...this is crazy...i am dreaming of the impossible..